by android574 » Sun Aug 28, 2011 9:32 pm
Soo - I've tried Inhalant yesterday night once again, and as expected, too much thoughts, no effects, fell asleep everytime for like 1 minute.
Now I've tried Demerol, a lot of people said they success with this dose everytime and got really nice numbing effects that remained even for hours. And well - as you can expect it, no effects at me again. I do count backwards, and while counting, some stupid thought comes again. Even concentrating extremely on the dose doesn't help, EVERYTIME some god damn thought comes or I fall asleep for some seconds or minutes. I do everything people say: I lie down, everything is comfortable, no lights, nothing that could distract me, no different sounds and these 150$ headphones that I only bought because I thought I-Doser will work better with it (Sennheiser hd 380 pro).
Here's something like a plan on how I dose:
I do start the dose and fix the volume to a level that doesn't hurt, at me its like 40%. Then I stop the Dose to get ready. I do start it again and the first 15-20 seconds of the dose get wasted for lying down and covering the eyes just to get sure that nothing distracts me. I try to concentrate on the dose while counting backwards, mostly from 500 down. I do say every number in my mind: 499, 498, 497... for the first 10 minutes I don't get any thought, but also no effects. Then it just appears from nowhere while counting, some god damn thought. Mostly without any sense behind it, a piano guy, a friend that talks some shit to me or whatever (I'm sure THAT can't be the effects since it appears at every dose). It takes like 2 or 3 seconds until I notice that I'm not concentrating on the dose anymore, so I gotta concentrate on the dose again and not even 10 seconds later the same bullsh** starts again, mostly it ends up with falling asleep the whole dose or just some seconds / minutes. What me annoys a bit is that my heart beats are mostly louder than the Dose. It's beating extremely strong, but at a normal rate while listening to a dose, starts already from the beginning.
Something has to be wrong at what I'm doing. I even try to calm down before the dose, trying to point out that I maybe get some effects.